Poem: Texas, No Exodus

I insist on survival every day I stay in Texas. 
Let me explain. A friend came over today 
& boom: joy shone from our fingertips. 
While the moon transitioned from waxing to waning, 
my bro got a top surgery letter. We get by 
with bitterness & rage. Home is no refuge 
from pain. Home is a state where all my homies 
share best remedies for sads acquired during 
our new winter. Acquired from a legislative session 
where our rights are chopped-n-screwed like songs.
We shake hades away at Tuezgayz,
melancholy in a city without transit, so 
I must sit idly on I-35, call my mother 
while my blood pressure subsides. 
Richard Wright once escaped to the north, 
a place where cold awaited him. 
I understand his urge to float to a land 
with less waves but water nonetheless. All I need 
is a couple baddies with yeehaw slang
to South Dallas Swag in the ocean;
no body of water can tame the sweetness living 
in my gold-toothed bro from H-town.
Everything’s bigger in Texas. Even the aching hearts.
Love is wrapped up in a land that wants me
more than the news lets on, so I run to it
quicker than a governing body says get out; 
I rodeo to it 
on the back of a smiling Longhorn
holding a Texas flag with tampons doused in blood,
the phrase come and take it surrounded 
by an exodus of rainbow